I can point to the source of a lot of my misery. Giving into temptations, the school course that is filled with so much I would normally never consume that changes the way I think and feel (that makes me curse inside, even if I wouldn't say it out loud), the pressure of trying to make my plans happen, the frustrations of trying to manage my small income when I have huge expenses, and wondering if I can make it all work out. Trying so hard to remain in control of my life, and realizing I just can't do it.
There is one thing that keeps me going, aside from a handful of people praying for me, is carrying me through this. Just one simple truth. Jesus loves me. No matter what happens, what I go through, and what I face, Jesus loves me. On the days I know I deserve anything but His love, Jesus loves me. His love is deep, strong, and unchanging. It remains firm. His love and faithfulness is all I can bank on when it feels like everything is falling apart.
I don't know what this coming week holds, the rest of this year, or next year. But I know what I'm holding on to. Jesus loves me. It's all I got.